So I did two things today I’ve never done before.
- I took photos is my underwear
- Was part of a fashion magazine photo shoot
It’s kind of a big day. Usually I steer clear of taking photos is my lingerie. This is mostly because I really don’t have an opinion on it. I am not sure how exactly it furthers my cause in the the self acceptance movement to show myself in underwear or nearly naked, but at the same time I understand why it is important to other people’s message. Needless to say getting photographed in my next to naked state is something kind of important to me. It’s not something I did lightly. However, when FashX Magazine asked me to be part of their “Love thy self” article, it seemed like the right time to step out of my comfort zone.
The shoot was a bit intimidating. I didn’t know how exactly I was going to feel half nakie in front of a gaggle of people. I thought about this as this spitfire red head from Lash and Lip Make Up did the most amazing make up on me ever. I thought about it even more when I heard the thinnish girl to my left talk about about how people judged her body. How she’s been told to gain weight and lose weight to fit in the modeling world. Body issues aren’t just a fat person’s problem.
The photographer Theresa Lollis totally put me at ease. Actually I kind of wanted Theresa to move to Austin and form a bad ass girl crew with me complete with matching jackets and a sweet handshake. She was- as Anne of Green Gables would say- a kindred spirit, a busom buddy. I was surprised how natural and at ease I felt in front of the camera. I kind of wished I got to do this everyday- look pretty and make art. I guess I kind of do, just in a low low budget way.
In the end I feel like I realized just how comfortable I am with myself. Something that seemed scary or out of my comfort zone, wasn’t really. I just needed that little push to try. When I did I realize the only thing I really feared was doing something new and failing. I can’t wait until the magazine comes out so I can have a permanent memory of these two big life firsts.
